Many of us believe that we have free will, that we are free and sovereign beings with the right to choose what is true for us. We would be shocked and horrified to even entertain the idea that we have been unconsciously entrained and programmed into a system that controls our choices and feeds off our energy like the fuel cells depicted in the movie the Matrix.
Years ago, in the jungle of Brazil, I sat up all night with the sacred plant medicine tea known by some as “Grandmother”. At one point of this deeply healing shamanic journey through layers of my own consciousness – that took me into the Bardos or astral realm- I was shown every horror movie image I had ever “imbibed” with my eyes and ears. As I re-saw images of blood and gore, possessed children, robotic insects, blood-thirsty, evil monsters, psychotic clowns, murderous sci-fi cyborgs and scary knife wielding mask faces, the frequency of terror was being detoxed, leaving my mind, body and spirit through the act of violent purging into a bucket.
The fear of death and the grip of my mind’s desire to control and stop the horror flashing before my eyes and streaming into the bucket made it hellish. I suffered and cried and painfully heaved and coughed and moaned as I vomited out the imprinted “fear porn” for what seemed like an eternity in that state.
By and by, I felt the gentle presence of a woman with me, singing softly, fanning me with a feathered fan. I slowly looked up from the dark bucket to take in her presence and take a deep breath. When I looked back down into the bucket I was gripping onto, I was shocked to see that there was nothing but a bit of spit on the bottom of it. All the purging and vomiting was astral or energetic.
I let myself fall into the arms of the angel- helper-woman, who began rocking me and brushing the feathers along my back as I started sobbing. In my release of chokes and sobs and tears I began to apologize to the Divine Mother for not honoring myself and taking care of my innocent heart. I felt like I needed to make an amends for how I had forgotten my connection to Her by not recognizing my own value and how sacred and precious my mind, body and spirit are.
Lately “real 3D life” is feeling somewhat like a strange medicine journey through the liminal or astral realm, where nothing is quite solid or clear, where darkness and confusion can cloud even the most beautiful sunny day with mental anguish in the form of future based fear projected pictures, “scary movies”, arising from narratives through media.
We have been unwittingly participating in a very dense energetic programming of our consciousness from media and the movie industry since we were toddlers. And it’s not our fault nor our parents fault, nor our grandparents’ fault. We have been plugged into and part of the consensus consciousness that has been traumatized and made to normalize horror, violence and war for millennia. All the video games the kids play these days are part of this same program, desensitizing and numbing the children’s sacred innocent hearts.
It’s not our fault, and with awareness, we are responsible… meaning we are able to respond. With awareness we are able to choose what we consume. We decide what we feed on and what we feed with our energy. What do we choose to “pay” attention to?
We have been fed and we have consumed a narrative of fear and othering, scarcity and separation consciousness, fueled by the slippery drama cycle of the “victim/perpetrator/rescuer story and the illusory need for “safety” above all else.
The “programmers” that would have us believe we are not safe, that we are the helpless victims who need them to protect us and keep us safe, are the same forces that have fed us lies, divided us, fed us propaganda, created wars and “terrorism” for profit, used violence and fear to control us and lead us to believe we are powerless.
How do we “take back our power” from the “illusionists”, dark magicians and spellcasters, remembering simultaneously- that many of them know not what they do and believe these narratives to be true.
Come back to the truth of your own heart.
Recognize yourself as an eternal soul and your true power can never be taken away from you.
Forgive.
This is how you liberate yourself from the matrix.
You are not just your body, not defined by your name, your job description, your relationships, your possessions, your attachments or your ego.
You are a divine, creative, multidimensional being, who is at choice in each moment- once you unplug and detox from the fear programming.
Look beyond the veil. Pierce the illusion of polarizing black and white, right and wrong, good and bad splitting, fragmenting and separating in your own mind. Track any places in your own psyche and energy system that are still entrained into a victim/ perpetrator/rescuer drama.
Recognize yourself as whole and holy.
You are so much more powerful in your embodied presence than you ever could imagine. Your essence, your soul, your heart and your mind- once you take back your true sovereignty through releasing the programming- is the most creative powerful force there is. You are Divine.
I’m not waiting for the second coming, the “good aliens”, “the white hats”, the “good forces” or the commander in chief to “Save“ me. I am not a victim.
I know who I am and what I serve.
Love and only love.
This is the true “Second Coming”. Through the awakening of the fire of compassion in the center of each of our hearts. Our hearts become like a second sun, ablaze… lights into the darkness of this world.
We are in a great spiritual initiation. We stand at the gateway.
What will you choose?
Will you choose to take each other’s hands and rise together in love…
Or to contract and polarize, judge, blame and separate in fear?
I’m committed to doing my part to unwind, reveal and dissolve the imprinted fear based reactive patterns in my own energy system. I am compassionately and consciously integrating and alchemizing ancestral and ancient, past life trauma programs of separation, blame, judgment and hatred in my root chakra that would keep me acting out/fighting/reacting in reptilian brain-survival, defensive, safety and control strategies, or collapsing in “freeze or flight” victimization and self-preservation mode.
Powerful light workers are the ones that are willing to go down into their own deepest shadow material to bring the light of unconditional love there first.
As we dare to feel these places and own our own shadows without discharging and projecting them onto anyone else, we are transmuting our part of the collective shadow.
We are unplugging from the shadow programming that feeds off our fear.
The shamanic descents or dark nights of the soul I’ve experienced in my spiritual journey have always brought me all the way through the Underworld, back out into the light of the most beautiful rising sun of a new dawn.
What will it take for you to completely surrender and dissolve into the unknown, into the mystery… to lie back and sob into the arms of the Divine Mother?
What will it take to release the vibration of fear in your root chakra and the gripping and grasping for safety and control in your mind, to trust the Divine intelligence that is dissolving false structures and illusions like the imaginal cells in a great alchemical chrysalis?
This is how you become a bringer of the dawn… by resurrecting the light of your own innocent heart. Trust.
I am not afraid now. If a fear arises, I recognize it as a part requiring to be loved back into wholeness and embrace it, hold it and love it back into the fiery crucible of my heart. It becomes like the dross, the very fuel for my growth and evolution.
Fear was programmed into us to traumatize and separate us, to make us…
F.orget
E.verything
A.nd
R.un
Now we take back our evolutionary power as we…
F.eel
E.verything
A.nd
R.ise
Together we rise.
Nothing can stop this evolutionary wave.
Stay on your cosmic surfboards and breathe deeply beloveds.
Your sister in the alchemy, and in the one heart, Eden Amadora
And from the voice of the DreamSpeaker Kore Taylor:
I humbly offer this dream as to the nature of duality – Black Magic/White Magic.
In the dream I am in a beautiful luxury hotel. I – Merlin am being chased by Morgaine and her hounds. I am desperately trying to find a place to hide. Her hounds are almost upon me and I have an idea…I will hide myself in her own shadow thinking she will never find me there. Time goes on and Morgaine figures it out realizing she must face her own shadow. A fierce Dual of Magicianship ensues as each one of us out does the other with tricks and intellect. Our emotions take over and eventually we become enraged with one another as we seemingly try to destroy the other – Black Magic against White Magic and visa versa -like an endless hall of mirrors… In a final attempt to “get” the other we forgo our magic and physically lunge for each other- We are at each other’s throat on the edge of a tall balcony, no longer being able to tell who is who-(” I ” whoever the “I ” is), is thrown over the edge. I instantly turn myself into dry leaves to float down to a large pool of water beneath me. Once I hit the water I turn myself into salt knowingly to dissolve. Dissolving/Surrendering “self” – releasing the division and separation of the old story of polarization/Duality.
“Solve et Coagula to Circulatio: Multiplicatio - the horizontal and projectio, the vertical aspects of consciousness, shutter delicately into union, revealing the precipitant of refined essence that is left after sublimation in the fires has burned off the dross of contractions, distortions, reactions, expanding potency, abundance and clarity. Through a continued refinement of perceiving subtlety, one passes from moving inwardly upstream, into the continuously circulating gold ourobourus of transmutation itself.”
A. Spilsbury The Wise Woman Alchemical Principle.
